( a sigh. yato has a point. he can't feasibly expect that, but still, he was hoping yato had more than this. )
Of course. It isn't even a question.
( who would back away? especially when it's being referred to as something like a cucumber. it's too weird! he just wants to know. )
Aren't you looking at this wrong? If I'm going to remember it anyway like from someone else or on my own, isn't it better to be prepared for the cucumbering?
[ Yato could argue all day for why the information he has is best kept secret. Has been arguing it to himself for at least a month. But Chiyo's advice didn't fall on deaf ears, and if he has to be honest with himself -- really, brutally honest -- he's only been running away from the reality surrounding Yukine. It's Yukine's life, young as it is. If Yukine wants to know, then Yato isn't certain he has any right to protect him from that information anymore, if he ever did. ]
Yeah... Yeah. It's just that the stakes are high. Really high.
[ Yato is a reckless gambler, but this is one gamble almost too much to bear. Being open with Yukine could mean nothing, or it could mean everything. Even now, trying to think of something he can tell Yukine without telling too much sends his mind reeling with panic.
Yet his conviction begins to waver. Yato even said it himself to Yuuko, so long ago: if he could know when he was going to die, he would want to know, if only to say his goodbyes.
And that memory is what does it. In the end, he never got to say goodbye to Yuuko, or thank her for being his friend. She forgot so suddenly, he had no chance. Even if she wouldn't have been able to hold onto his farewells, if he'd had the chance to make his peace, maybe he wouldn't have to feel so much sadness when he looks at her now, sadness he can't keep from his face as he looks away from Yukine. He speaks softly. ]
It's your life, Yuki. If knowing that it could harm you doesn't stop you from wanting to know, then I'll tell you.
( simply said. that much is a fact and there's no amount of deterrent that would make him change his mind. if it's something related to him even if it's not really-quite-him, he wants to know everything he can about it. )
Especially when you keep hyping it up as dangerous and harmful. Kind of feels like it'd be prudent for me to know what's going on then. I don't like secrets or getting caught off guard by stuff I don't know. So, if you remembered something important then I want to know.
( a breath. it's not easy to say this, but yato must have his reasons. he's got to have a solid reason for not wanting to tell him, especially when he's had this distressed expression on the whole time he's been here. maybe this time, he'll defer to his judgement and let it go. for now. )
But. . . I don't know. If you really think that it's dangerous for me to know then I'll trust your judgement and you can tell me when the time is right. Just promise me that you'll tell me eventually, okay?
[ The allowance comes as a surprise. Yukine trusting him with anything feels like a minor miracle at this point.
It's an allowance Yato is thankful for. He'll tell Yukine all the details eventually -- that much is now inevitable. But even if Yukine is ready to hear everything, Yato isn't quite ready to tell.
There will be plenty of time, he thinks. The changes in people tend to be slow to start and swift to bury. ]
... Alright. I promise. Just give me a little more time. There are some things I need to figure out too.
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( a sigh. yato has a point. he can't feasibly expect that, but still, he was hoping yato had more than this. )
Of course. It isn't even a question.
( who would back away? especially when it's being referred to as something like a cucumber. it's too weird! he just wants to know. )
Aren't you looking at this wrong? If I'm going to remember it anyway like from someone else or on my own, isn't it better to be prepared for the cucumbering?
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Yeah... Yeah. It's just that the stakes are high. Really high.
[ Yato is a reckless gambler, but this is one gamble almost too much to bear. Being open with Yukine could mean nothing, or it could mean everything. Even now, trying to think of something he can tell Yukine without telling too much sends his mind reeling with panic.
Yet his conviction begins to waver. Yato even said it himself to Yuuko, so long ago: if he could know when he was going to die, he would want to know, if only to say his goodbyes.
And that memory is what does it. In the end, he never got to say goodbye to Yuuko, or thank her for being his friend. She forgot so suddenly, he had no chance. Even if she wouldn't have been able to hold onto his farewells, if he'd had the chance to make his peace, maybe he wouldn't have to feel so much sadness when he looks at her now, sadness he can't keep from his face as he looks away from Yukine. He speaks softly. ]
It's your life, Yuki. If knowing that it could harm you doesn't stop you from wanting to know, then I'll tell you.
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( simply said. that much is a fact and there's no amount of deterrent that would make him change his mind. if it's something related to him even if it's not really-quite-him, he wants to know everything he can about it. )
Especially when you keep hyping it up as dangerous and harmful. Kind of feels like it'd be prudent for me to know what's going on then. I don't like secrets or getting caught off guard by stuff I don't know. So, if you remembered something important then I want to know.
( a breath. it's not easy to say this, but yato must have his reasons. he's got to have a solid reason for not wanting to tell him, especially when he's had this distressed expression on the whole time he's been here. maybe this time, he'll defer to his judgement and let it go. for now. )
But. . . I don't know. If you really think that it's dangerous for me to know then I'll trust your judgement and you can tell me when the time is right. Just promise me that you'll tell me eventually, okay?
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It's an allowance Yato is thankful for. He'll tell Yukine all the details eventually -- that much is now inevitable. But even if Yukine is ready to hear everything, Yato isn't quite ready to tell.
There will be plenty of time, he thinks. The changes in people tend to be slow to start and swift to bury. ]
... Alright. I promise. Just give me a little more time. There are some things I need to figure out too.