A little after we got here, there was a bad game. My teammate at the time went out of her way to protect me and sacrifice so I wouldn't have to. She told me "Alectryon protects Alectryon". The others told me the same thing.
Then they called us "family". Arim gave me my name, but everyone else also made it feel like a home. It took a while, but it was real.
Now everyone is gone. Only Tora is left, but one day she's going to be gone too.
( rubbing the back of his elbow. )
I never thought that family was a big deal until them.
that's the mentality that he's been starting to adopt, so it helps solidify it to have yato confirm it. maybe he has been putting too much of himself into other people. )
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( GOD, YATO. )
Would you call them family?
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...I dunno if it's like that. [ 'family' doesn't mean much to him. ]
A team is important enough. And they're my friends, some of them.
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( pausing. )
Do you trust them?
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[ YUKINE IS HIS KID, that's the closest he's got, and all he needs. but 'family'...?
his dad can stay dead, for all he cares!! ]
Yeah, I trust them.
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Then they called us "family". Arim gave me my name, but everyone else also made it feel like a home. It took a while, but it was real.
Now everyone is gone. Only Tora is left, but one day she's going to be gone too.
( rubbing the back of his elbow. )
I never thought that family was a big deal until them.
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HE'S BAD AT FEELINGS.
he sits down on the edge of his bed. ]
...Do you think of the new ones as family too?
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No, I don't. They're just new teammates. Maybe it's unfair, but wouldn't it make it cheap if I just called anyone my family?
Like, I think about Hiyori and you like family too. It's not an easy thing.
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No, it's not unfair...
What will you do, then? Will you tell them 'Alectryon protects Alectryon', and keep going...?
Or is it too hard?
[ these are honest questions. ]
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It's hard to keep losing people.
( but maybe it's supposed to be like that? )
Is it always going to be like this?
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[ NO SUGARCOATING ]
The longer you're around, the more people you'll meet, and the more you'll lose. People are coming and going every day here.
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[ WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR ]
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that's the mentality that he's been starting to adopt, so it helps solidify it to have yato confirm it. maybe he has been putting too much of himself into other people. )
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You have people it'd hurt if they left, right?
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What if you fall asleep? Or go home before me?
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Me? No way, I'm not tired at all. And I've got a whole ton of memories to get back, y'know? Way more than you.
[ literal centuries.
he seems pretty confident about this. ]
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I've lost plenty of teammates. Most of 'em were only here a short time.
[ he shrugs. wasn't hard to accept them leaving.
but. he grows a little quiet, then, and glances at his closed door. ]
Blade's mirror is almost done...
[ that one's gonna be different. ]
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( going to sit by him on the bed. )
Are you going to be ok with that?
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He's been here too long for such an old guy, he's gotta be tired and ready to go home.
So it's good for him. Finishing your mirror's the whole point of being here, after all.
[ which maybe doesn't quite answer Yukine's question, but?? ]
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( NO TRUST. )
None of your teammates have gone home before, right?
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WHY MORE FEELINGS.
he pauses... ]
No, he's the first.
[ and he's going to forgettttttt... ]
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Maybe I'm being weak, but it's scary to me. All these people who can see us with no problem like we were regular people. It's nice.
But it's all temporary.
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[ HE'S DECIDED
RIGHT NOW ]
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